RINDU

Ku rindu tangis mu
Usap lalu butiran mutiara di pipi mu
Kucup lembut meredakan hiba mu
Bahagia melihat sinar senyum mu

Ku rindu tawa mu
Tiap pelusuk bernyawa dengan hadir mu
Riang tawa mu pengubat hati ku
Membuang segala bisa duka ku

Ku rindu peluk mu
Memujuk reda marah ku
Mencurah kasih suci mu
Saban malam setia di sisi ku

Ku rindu
Tanpa mu
Siapa diri ku
Tanpa mu
Sunyi hidup ku
Tanpa mu
Kosong dunia ku

*khas buat dua insan yang paling kusayang dan ku rindu saat ini...akan sentiasa menyayangimu berdua...

IT HURTS

I know its coming
But never thought its gonna come so fast
Crashing up to me
Leaving me crumple in a corner

I could only feel the coldness
Freezing me into stone...icy cold
I could only feel the emptiness
Deep hole in my heart....hollow
I could only scream in pain
In every nightmare
Watching ur back fading
Leaving me unprotected to my own self

If only tears could fade away this emptiness
Maybe I should cry till it bleeds and blind me forever
And forever may I see the darkness
Cause I've already lost my light of life

Losing u....
It hurts....

* inspiration from 'New Moon'...the parting part is the best...i love the way how they captured Bella emotions, so strong, it hurts to see such strong emotions...but to see Edward eyes in desperation is precious....;P

WILL U BE MINE

My heart is singing

A special song for u

U touched my heart

Warmth me through

In silent I'm scared of losing u

Deep inside I wish

Close to me I wanna keep u

Though my lips sealed tight

But my heart screams in silence

Will u please be mine...

THINKING QUEST

ARE U THINKING WHAT I'M THINKING U ARE THINKING ABOUT??
MAYBE U ARE THINKING WHAT I'M THINKING??

WHAT AM I THINKING??

WHAT ARE U THINKING??

WHAT ARE WE THINKING ABOUT??

*oooohhhhh...headaches;P

KEMBALI BAHAGIA

Hati ku menyanyi kembali

Biarlah duka itu pergi

Aku berhak atas hidupku ini

Tiada siapa dapat menghalang

Pabila bahagia bertamu di hati

ITS COMING!!!

I'm waiting eagerly for

'NEW MOON'

20th NOVEMBER 2009

YIPPEEEEE!!!! ;)

BOUNCE BABY!!

Sometimes love comes around

And it knocks u down

Just get back up

When it knocks u down

*such a cute devil...hehehe;P

LEPASKANLAH

Biarkan cinta itu berlalu

Andainya ia menyakitimu

Mungkin kini kau tegar

Tapi kau pasti kan mengerti nanti

Cinta itu sepatutnya indah

Tiada makna andai ia menyeksa jiwa

Andai dia milik mu

Penghujung dunia pun takkan dapat

Memisahkan kau dan dia

Lepaskan lah ia

Berikan dirimu dan dirinya peluang

Mungkin tika kau bernafas kembali

Kau kan sedar penghujungnya kan tetap begini

*aduss....tetiba terkeluar plak lirik ni dengan melodinya dari kepala ku...mindaku tengah berpusing-pusing nih...nak wat camner idea mencurah2...hehe;)

MELODI HATIKU

Engkau di sana
Aku merindu
Jarak pemisah
Masa penentu

Hati ku terpaut padamu
Biar kau tak mampu ku sentuh
Jiwa ku menyanyi untuk mu
Saban hari rinduku kian utuh

c/o

Rindu ini melodi hati ku
Mungkin tak senada dengan hati mu
Namun ianya bukan penghalang
Untuk hati ku bernyanyi riang

c/o

Mungkin....satu hari nanti
Melodi....hati kita kan seiring
Walau.....andai kicau mu tak berubah
Kicau ku....kan tetap melodi hati ku

*diinspirasikan buat pencinta-pencinta sepi...gara-gara tengok "He's just not that into u"...hehe;)

THE CLIMB

LIFE IS A CLIMB

BUT THE VIEW IS GREAT

KEHIDUPAN

Kita tahu bagaimana permulaannya

Dan saban hari kita terokai perjalanannya

Ada suka, ada duka

Temui cinta, kehilangan cinta

Sekejap di atas, sekejap di bawah

Ada tikanya lemas dipukul ombak

Yang pasti

Setiap hari kita berjuang

Dengan hati dan minda yang terbuka

Berbaloi untuk kita harunginya

Demi satu kehidupan yang kita idamkan

Kita hanya manusia biasa

Mati itu pasti, tiada kuasa untuk kita menghalangnya

Tapi selagi hayat dikandung badan

Walau sukar jalan yang perlu ditempuhi

Perjuangan perlu diteruskan

Kerana kehidupan ini penuh misteri

Hanya Dia sahaja Yang Maha Mengetahui

MUSIC IN HEARTS

All the happiness

Even the sadness

All the heartaches

Nevertheless the heartbreaks

MUSIC

It captures vary emotions

In a perfect harmony

With beautiful lyrics

And beautiful melodies

MUSIC

In my heart

And yours

MUSIC

Connects the world

In beautiful ways

TERLUKA

Memang mudah untuk kita melukai

Sama ada dengan perbuatan

Atau sekadar kata-kata...

Setelah melukai

Cukup mudah kemaafan dipohon

Seolah-olah ianya hanya satu mainan

Permainan 'Ku lukakan mu dan kau maafkan ku'

Kejamnya mainan perasaan mu...

Untuk melukai memang mudah

Tapi tak mudah bagi pihak yang terluka

Kerana setiap kali perasaan ini terluka

Parutnya pasti ada...

*khas buat insan2 yang melukai...diinspirasikan oleh ****** yang terluka (rahsia)...hehe;P

CINTA, BENCI, RINDU

CINTA asyik

BENCI rasa

RINDU penyelamat

*ingatan buat adikku sayang dan insan2 yg sedang bercinta...hehe;)

ALREADY GONE

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hold you

Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss

Then we could feel the poison set in

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

* I LOVE THIS SONG-KELLY CLARKSON ROCKS!!!

p/s: they always say we should be passionate and loyal in love...mom always say that i'm a very loyal person when it comes to love cause she knows that i wont give up that easily (or maybe it just shows that i am a hard-headed person...hehe;P)but when things didnt turn out to be what we hope for, when promises became just an endless hope, when it hurts us more than it should, when theres nothing can bring back the sparks, when all hope is gone, when all effort failed, i guess when the reality hits u hard on ur face, u really have to take things in ur own hand, put away all the fears and insecurity, be brave and have a strong will cause it definitely aint easy, the whole world could turn against u, nobody might understand why and turn their backs on u, but u need to do what u have to do to put all the suffering into an end....nobody can help u except urself...

LOVE IS UNIVERSAL

BUT DIGNITY AND FUTURE

SHOULD ALWAYS BE IN OUR OWN HANDS

WONDERING

Why skies are blue?

Can I have pretty pink skies...

Or maybe purple...

Perhaps green is nicer...

Maybe yellow or orange

Hmmmmm....I wonder...

PILIHAN

MENYAYANGI atau MEMBENCI

BERGEMBIRA atau BERDUKA

KETAWA atau MENANGIS

YANG KUAT atau YANG LEMAH

BERJUANG atau MENYERAH

MENAKLUKI atau DITAKLUKI

MENGUASAI atau DIKUASAI

APA PILIHANMU??

IZINKAN KU

Izinkan ku

Menyelami hati mu

Mengajar mu erti rindu

Menyayangi mu sepenuh hatiku

Izinkan ku

Menemani mu

Dalam suka

Dalam duka

Tempat ku di sisi mu

Izinkan ku

Menggenggam jemari mu

Membiarkan mu memimpinku

Ke dunia mu

Yang kan jua jadi milik ku

BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY

Here we are

Relaxing underneath the bamboo trees

Small river flows in peace

Splish splash...the cold crystal clear water

Laughter echoes in the air

Hair dripping wet

Fair skin turns pale

For lunch

Lebanese bread with chickpea humus

Stuff with pieces of roasted chicken

Tangy yoghurt tantalising tastebuds

With caramelised baked sweet potatoes

And grapes

We PLAY

We EAT

We ENJOY

Its a beautiful SUNDAY!!!

KEBAHAGIAAN

Tanda bahagia ialah apabila adanya tenang.

Ustaz Pahrol Mohamad Juoi, buku Satu Rasa Dua Hati

* Dan kini walau aku keseorangan, aku dalam ketenangan...aku bahagia...:)

KEPERCAYAAN

KEPERCAYAAN

Sukar diberi

Sering dicari

Pabila ditagih

Kita menghulur

Pabila terluka

Kita tersungkur

BEAUTIFUL HORIZON

Peace

Calm

Free

SHINY STARS

Mommy!!

Look at the stars!!

So bright

So pretty

I wish I am a star!!

Yes dear...

You are a star...

My shiny star..

WISHES

I wish for a life

For a peaceful life

Full of joy and happiness

I wish for the darkness

To shy away

And let the light shines

I wish I'm free

FREE

Only myself to be

CINTA

CINTA

Dari mata turun ke hati

Dari kata jiwa ditakluki

Dari kosong segala terisi

Dari duka kembali berseri

Namun

Hakikat setiap epilog cinta

Penghujungnya misteri

KEMBALIKAN SAYAPKU

Segalanya ingin kau permainkan

Setelah apa yang ku korbankan buat mu

Setelah apa yg ku hadapi dengan mu

Bukan sejam dua

Bukan sehari dua

Bukan setahun dua

Luka...

Aku berpegang pada janjimu
Akan melepaskan ku dengan kerelaan hati mu
Tapi akhirnya sekali lagi
Janji tinggal janji
Kata-kata tidak bererti
Hanya omongan dan omokan
Kerna aku masih terikat oleh tali mu
Tak mampu bebas dari cengkamanmu...

Aku hanya seorang wanita
Tiada besar kudrat ku ingin menongkah arus gelap ini
Terima kasihku kepada mu
Kerna berjaya selama ini dan sekali lagi....

KAU
Permainkan hatiku
Permainkan perasaanku
Permainkan kepercayaanku
Permainkan ketulusanku
Permainkan kelembutanku
Permainkan masa depan ku
Permainkan hidupku

Letaklah segala-galanya di bahuku
Gelenglah kepalamu menidakkan segalanya
Puaskanlah ego mu
Permainkan segalanya
Kerna bagiku cukuplah setakat ini
Muak sudah aku dengan permainanmu
Kau raja berkuasa lengkap bala tenteranya

Sedang aku hanya tawananmu....

Ingatanku buatmu
Aku pasrah
Kudrat ku hanya memohon padaNya
Agar membuka mata dan hatimu
Tiliklah balik dirimu
Timbanglah balik langkahmu
Kembalikanlah sayapku
Hanya damai yang kupohon....

RAYA!!!!

Agak2 dah terlambat ke wat isu raya?? who cares, raya kan sebulan...duhhh;P
raya this year was fun...extremely for my two angels...absolutely u understand why...hahaha;P but yes, i was having a good time myself, though there are a few spoilers but again, who cares...i dont;)
we all are humans...we make mistakes, nobody is perfect...and as a good humble samaritan, forgiveness is always seek and given...not just only for raya (though we always use raya as our excuses)...hahahaha;P
but i definitely adore the food....last year i didnt get the chance to raya cause i've just delivered my second angel in the last week before raya, so i missed my raya last year...but this year, REVENGE...raya sakan....hahahahaha;P i couldnt help myself when i saw those delicious lemang and rendang and all the goodies on the table...i had to have it all...i could eat all i want at three houses in a row....ahahahaha;P but after a week i have to climb back the scale just to take a peek....and yesssss, ok maybe just a kilo in a week...phew, a kilo is still tolerable cause i put down weight few kilos during the fasting month...so a week is all i can go, now back to moderation again...i love food,but moderation is always good;)

so, to those that knows me and still in the raya mood....
SELAMAT HARI RAYA & MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!!

SAYANGKU BERJANJI...TIADA MAKNANYA LAGI

Mudahnya berkata sayang

Dulu cair hati bila mendengar lafaz keramat

Tapi seberapa dalam makna nya kan terduga

Masa memapar nilai nya

Hingga akhirnya biar seribu kali pun kata itu dilafaz

Kini ia hanya sekadar menyapa telinga

Sudah tidak tertambat di hati

Tiada maknanya lagi....

Mudahnya menabur janji

Mahu diberi segala-galanya

Ibarat lautan sanggup direnangi, hutan sanggup diredahi

Tapi kalau sekadar omongan apa maknanya

Sekadar memainkan pengharapan insan yang setia mengharap

Masa memakan janjinya

Tiada maknanya lagi....

Mengertilah...kepedihannya....

Dua perkara yang seharusnya indah...

Akhirnya memakan jiwa...

LOVE

Love is beautiful

But it can also be painful

Love is blind
And it blinds u


Love is a game
With no rules
Play it right...u'll be amaze with the prize
Play it wrong...u'll be out of the game in no time

Love
Can't live with it
Can't live without it

MINE FOREVER

My dad

Though he is so strict, makes me wanna run away almost all the time

But though he drives me mad

And me drives him nuts

I will always have a special place in his heart

And his special place in mine...

My mom

Her soft heart understands me all the time

Though she can be emo sometimes

But she always stand by my side no matter what

I'm the worst daughter she could ever have

But she's the best....

My sis

She's nuts

But very supportive

And I'm thankful she's my sister...

My little brother (which is not little at all)

How should I describe him

Cant find words to describe him actually

But those who know him would have different ways to describe him

Sorry bro...

My angels

My beautiful daughters

Despite all the mess, the chaos, the endless cries, and definitely those tantrums

No matter what, I'll have endless love for you both

Grow up beautifully my darlings

I'll always be here watching....

My love

Tricky

Can I find a true love that will actually last forever

Maybe for now I'm happy with those top 5...hehe;P

*i've just created a 'mine forever' album in my FB...all thanx to my sis...xoxoxo love yer!!!

HINDI MOVIES

Yesterday, we were screening through the cd piles at my parents place...and we found all the old hindi movies cds...so we grab few of our favourites, and spend the whole day watching them...our all-time favourite hindi actor is definitely Shah Rukh Khan...sweet and adorable, and a good dancer too...hahahaha;P but there are also others like Hirthik Roshan, Amitabh Bachan, Arjun Rampal etc... My favourite hindi movies are Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham, Mohabbatein, Dil To Pagal Hai and Kuch Kuch Hota Hai (hope i get their spelling right...;P) We were all in tears watching Kabhi Kushi...damn, that movie is really touching!!! what i love watching hindi movies are their great songs. But u wont get good songs in latest new hindi movies...they are too modern. I love to see their culture, their traditional dances, their values in their movies...there are richness in their old movies that u cant find in others..but i guess now they prefer to follow Hollywood glam...too bad.

KU RELA

Bulan berganti bulan
Tahun berganti tahun
Sinar terang yg kuharapkan
Masih diselubungi awan kelabu
Ku dah tak mampu bertahan
Sedangkan tebing batu pun terhakis dipukul ombak

Bukannya aku tak sayang
Engkau pun tahu sejauh mana kesetiaanku di sisi mu
Malangnya janji yg kau beri sekadar hiasan manis di bibir
Sedangkan aku menanti pengharapan yang kau taburkan
Akhirnya realiti menyedarkan aku
Pengharapan yang kau hulurkan hanya omongan
Sedangkan penantian ku tiada penghujung yang pasti
Berapa kali ku terluka tapi ku pendam pedihnya
Namun parut nya berbekas di lubuk hatiku
Walau senyuman menghiasi wajahku
Pedih di hati memakan jiwa hanya Dia yang tahu
Api cintaku yang marak dulu ditelan kekecewaan
Terpadamnya bara cinta ku
Kini yang tinggal hanya kekosongan....sepi

Maafkan aku
Kerna aku hanya insan biasa tidak sempurna
Walau kasihku dulu bertakhta
Tapi kini tiada lagi
Kesabaranku ada hadnya
Bagiku cukuplah setakat ini
Dari kita saling menyakiti
Biarlah segalanya berakhir di sini
Walau pahit terpaksa ku telan jua
Kerna kudratku sudah tiada lagi
Cintaku buat dirimu lenyap sama sekali
Jiwaku sepi rebah ke bumi
Maafkan aku
Ku rela pengakhirannya begini...

SWEET DREAMS (A LULLABY)

Close your eyes, my angel 2x

Sweet dreams 3x

Tomorrow is uncertain

Future is still just a blur

But no matter what future brings

Just lift your head high

And smile.....smile

Close your eyes, my angel 2x

Sweet dreams 3x

All I wish is for your best

All I pray is for your strength

All I hope is for your happiness

And no tears....no tears

Close your eyes, my angel 2x

Sweet dreams 3x

Dream of me

Dream of us

Dream of all the happiness

And the love that we share

Together

Forever

Close your eyes, my angel 2x

Sweet dreams 3x

SMILE & SHINE (still in progress)

Hush for now

Let us see

Why do faith brings u to me

Why are tears

Stream down your cheeks

Why sorrow accompanies

c/o Smile, smile, smile

Set your heart free

Shine, shine, shine

Shine your smile on me

If you're hurt

Get a cure

Thats what friends are there for

If u cry

Just think why

Is it worth it to be so wary

c/o

You will heal

Time to time

Have a will for a good life

Can you see

What will it be

Todays tears

Tomorrow u might be happy

c/o

FLY WITH ME

Take my hands

Together we'll fly

Over the clouds

By the rainbow

I'll wipe your tears

Wash away your fears

Gonna keep you close

Will never let go

I will love you truly

Hold you tight and safely

Treat u right full passionately

My promises for eternity

JUST A HISTORY

In the past

U were everything to me

U were practically my world

Everything evolves around u and me

But now

Together we have nothing

Left are fraction of memories

Feeling the emptiness that was left behind

Well I guess 2x

Nothing lasts forever

Soon things become more than err

And the hotness subside to coldness

We drifted apart

And u know 2x

Reality in our world

Is too far and too much differ

And the truth turn to false, mistake by mistake

Rip us apart

In the past

Our love is unbreakable

Nothing ever could break us

Our love binding strongly together our souls

And Now

We are just existing

As two separate different people

Where the past was ours

And now its just a history

*today was a very long day...i was scrabbling when the words came with a tune...so i guess i'm writing lyrics now that actually has a melody in my head...hmmm,maybe after this i need a piano/guitar player/a band help to really turn lyrics into complete songs....hmmm, that idea is not bad after all....hahaha;P

HILANGNYA CINTA

Orang kata cinta itu kekal selamanya...

Orang kata...

Dulu cinta ku kukuh...

Walau badai menghempas, ku tetap genggam cintaku...

Itu dulu...

Kini, jiwaku kosong...

Tiada rasa...

Yang tinggal hanya kekecewaan...

Sakitnya hati tak mampu dikata...

Kecewanya jiwa remuk merana...

Kering sudah air mata...

Aku keliru...

Tapi ku pasrah...

Hilangnya cinta...

MY ANGEL

My eyes shut tight

As I fall endlessly

Into the blackness

Chills down to my bones

Painful silence is all I have

Surrendering my soul to the darkness

Till then I heard

An angelic voice calling my name

Like a wind chime blown by the wind

The melody of her voice

Ring a happy tune in my ears

As her hands touch my cold face

Feel a spark

And there my cheeks blush

Silently I gaze into her hypnotic eyes

Watch as her red pouted lips

Curl a wonderous smile to me

Feel its warmth all over

As if she blows a life back in me

My soul she save

My angel

TWILIGHT

A great movie from a great book series...A great love saga...
I've read the whole series over and over again...Just love them...
Looking forward how well it'll be translated into movies...
Love 'Twilight'...

THOUGHTS OF THE END

If death is so close...

Is it worth it??

For us to fight...

When the end of it...

Is clearly approaching...

Will we taste the blaze breathe of hell...

Burn our soul for eternity...

Or perhaps we are lucky enough...

To taste the sweetness of heaven eventually...

Have we done enough goodness in this world??

Or maybe our book is just full of sins...

Friends

Time passes by...

Days...

Months...

Even years...

No matter how far u go...

No matter how lost u are...

Surprises do come...

Out of nowhere, there it is...

Its back...

It finds u...

Although u are in total darkness..

Although u are in crumple...

Suddenly it shines on u...

Flashes back all the memories...

The laughters...

The pranks...

Even the tears...

How that precious memories..

That was shared in the past...

Makes ur lips curl smiles...

Make u hear those happy hums in ur ears...

Giving u a bright sunny day again..

Friends....

How precious they are...

Eclipse

Today was an eclipse day...

At around 8.30-8.40 am here we can see eclipse in the sky...

Beautiful view....too bad i dont have any pictures to show...

Is it true eclipse bring bad omen?

Hmmm...i've watched eclipse few times before...but i guess nothing bad really happen...

Its just another wonder of nature which thrilled us every time it happens...

To Love Or Not To Love

Love me for all the goodness that I have...

Hate me for all the worst that I could become...

To love or not to love...

I dare u...

Save Me

I've been through hard days...

My head cant stop spinning around...

I'm out of tears...

This burden is trying to crush my spirit now...

After all this hardness...

Now all i can think of...

Can somebody please rescue me...

From this entangled web that i'm trying to escape...

Save me please...

Cause i couldnt save my own neck...

I'm totally crush...

Save me..

Dance With Me

Dance with me

By the moonlight

Underneath the stars..

Dance with me

In the shadows

Of this sleepless night..

Dance with me

Hold me tight

So I can breathe you..

Dance with me

Till this night ends

And kiss me then..

Dance with me

Now and forever

Till death do us part

*Hmmm, I'm in a dreamy mood after watching 'Twilight'....

UNTUK SEKETIKA

Terleka aku di tepi jendela,

Menjenguk mentari bersinar terang,

Melayan burung berkicau girang,

Merenung bunga mekar berkembang...

Perlahan ku pejamkan mata,

Melayang aku ke tengah taman,

Kakiku bebas menapak di atas rumput hijau berembun,

Rancak langkahku mengejar rama-rama berterbangan,

Girang hatiku menari di celahan pepohon merendang,

Gema hilai tawaku memecah keheningan,

Memenuhi segenap taman indah impian ku,

Betapa kebahagiaan menerangi seluruh pelusuk jiwaku....

PRAAAAAAAAAANG!!!!

Termangu aku seketika...

Kebisingan mula menguasai segenap ruang pendengaranku...

Kekecohan mula memenuhi segenap ruang penglihatanku...

Sayangnya kini aku kembali....

Ke dunia realitiku...

Sayangnya keindahan hanya menjengahku...

Untuk seketika